Womanhood and Self Discovery

Turning 40 years old this last year was life changing for me. I have never been bothered by a birthday, NEVER. But this one got me. It latched a hold and didn’t let go for a while. I still do not fully understand what it is that bothers me so much, but I’ve learned to deal with it and move on. I have learned to celebrate who I am, and embrace the struggles that brought me to where I am.

So, I decided to solidify this moment in time with a photo shoot. If you know me, you know it is difficult to get pictures beyond a selfie on the trail or our annual family photo day! This photo session was a little bit different. I found a local photographer, Ali, whose art is boudoir photography. Check out her website here.

Here I am, not even knowing the correct way to wear make-up; the idea of doing this photo shoot was completely outside my comfort zone! I wear comfortable clothes, running clothes, or work attire. I am NOT used to lingerie, accessories, and SUPER high heels! But, I did it and it was amazing. I saw myself like I have never seen myself before.

Ali has a way of making you feel sexy, honored, and powerful. I am so comfortable being the wife, mom, and boss. I never imagined myself as a sexy woman. That area of my life has always taken a back seat to being the one to “get shit done.” Who knew by taking an hour and a half one morning, I would have a life changing experience. I love to laugh. I love to smile. I never noticed how much I loved those things until that morning.

Each photo captured a different side of myself. A different challenge. A different experience. A different feeling. All the differences that make me, ME. It was amazing and I suggest every woman take a day and invest in themselves and DO IT! Trust me, if Ali can teach me how to be comfortable in this setting, she can teach anyone!

Welcome!

Welcome to my journey. I look forward to figuring out this thing called life, now that I am 40 years in to it. Something happened when I turned 40. I am not sure how to explain it, but at first I was bothered by the number. I never had a birthday effect me quite like this one and I’m not even sure why. Maybe because I am so used to planning for the future that I forgot to live for today? Maybe because I am so used to playing things safe that I forgot to take some risks and see where I landed? Not sure. But here I am, right now, in this moment, and I am ready to share it all with you. Let’s go! Time is wasting. 🙂